Happiness

It is a common misconception that fat people, particularly women, are unhappy. If we were happy we wouldn't be fat right? Wrong.

I will say that I have not led a overall happy life. And yes, that is probably what led me to being overweight. But, right now, even at the weight and size that I am, I am overall very happy. If I had to say one thing that I am unhappy about in my life I would say it's my weight but at the same time, it doesn't really drag down my life, it doesn't effect it overly much.

I have a wonderful, loving, kind husband of 10 years. I have 3 beautiful, smart, active, fun daughters, 2 dogs, 2 cats my own home, a car that gets me from point A to point B. I have a full filling, if not overly stressful at times, job that I've been at for 4 years. I work with people that I honestly care about as human beings. I have family that loves me. I'm a little lax in the friends department but that's my own fault, I don't put myself out there to make friends.

I mostly don't eat when I'm sad or depressed. I do eat out of boredom but not sadness. I eat when I'm happy and considering my current weight, I must be blissfully happy! LOL

It's very hard to concentrate on getting rid of the one thing that makes me unhappy when I'm overflowing so much with things that make me happy. Why would I concentrate on the negitive? But at the same time, if something is making me unhappy, shouldn't I do something about that?

What a fucked up circle huh.