The words "just" and "cancer" do not belong in the same sentence. Yet when telling people about Zerolove's spot of skin cancer that he is having removed today, that is what I hear "Oh it's just skin cancer" or "It's just one little spot, they go in, cut it out and it's all fine." Okay, logically, I know these things are true most of the time. I know that Cancer can be caught in time to remove it and never have it return. I know that this is really no big deal and he'll be fine. At least in my head I know these things.
My heart however, sees things differently. My heart has fears and concerns that I won't even vocalize for fear of making them real.
I spent 15 years of my life watching my uncle fight and eventually lose a battle with cancer. I watched it eat away a little piece of him at a time until there was nothing left. I watched my aunt worry, cry, fight, go into debt and finally mourn because of Cancer. I heard the worry in my aunt's voice when I told her about Zerolove's cancer.
It is never "just" any kind of "cancer." If it was "no big deal" the doctor wouldn't need to remove it. They wouldn't check for it. Zero and I talked about the word cancer the other day and how frightening it is. We decided it should be called Lollipops instead. There's nothing scary about that word. You don't see the pity on people's faces when you say lollipop.
So today, Zero is having a lollipop removed from his back and hopefully he'll never have another lollipop.
My heart however, sees things differently. My heart has fears and concerns that I won't even vocalize for fear of making them real.
I spent 15 years of my life watching my uncle fight and eventually lose a battle with cancer. I watched it eat away a little piece of him at a time until there was nothing left. I watched my aunt worry, cry, fight, go into debt and finally mourn because of Cancer. I heard the worry in my aunt's voice when I told her about Zerolove's cancer.
It is never "just" any kind of "cancer." If it was "no big deal" the doctor wouldn't need to remove it. They wouldn't check for it. Zero and I talked about the word cancer the other day and how frightening it is. We decided it should be called Lollipops instead. There's nothing scary about that word. You don't see the pity on people's faces when you say lollipop.
So today, Zero is having a lollipop removed from his back and hopefully he'll never have another lollipop.
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